Breathing is like, really important. Since I had that flu before Christmas I’ve not been breathing like I should be. I had that full-on attack New Years Eve and now even simplest effort sets me off. Walking to my car, Ginnie’s deodorant, vacuuming, showering, talking too much, and today with the rain – just sitting here in my chair.

I have the asthma cough and I feel like there’s a 10 lb weight sitting on my chest. I can’t get a deep breath or when I do I cough it all away.  But this level isn’t emergent. I have a doctor’s appointment on Wednesday and until then I have to plan and take care every moment, or I could overdo it and end up back in the ER.

Please let there be new medications. I’m already taking Advair (500/50) and theophylline, and Accolate, and the inevitable albuterol inhaler and it’s just not cutting it anymore. This is a new doctor so maybe she’ll have new information, new medications.

I have too much to do this week to get bogged down with no air. I’m supposed to give my first ever presentation at CenPhoCamp this Saturday. I’m already nervous as shit about that and I can’t even get up and practice or I get out of breath. I’m so unprepared. If I’m not better by Saturday I’m not sure I can do it.